Tuesday, November 11, 2008? Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Alot of things have just happened within this few hours.
My heart and feelings? They are totally off, numb from the pain. Yet again tears could just flow down my eyes uncontrollably. I dunno what exactly happened that could trigger this series of events that lead to so much pain in me. I have never whatsoever felt this way before, I usually thought a good night sleep could just wash away everything. This wasn't the case, it just lingers on and on and bringing even much more pain to me. I was always trying to think about alot of good things that could happen after this day but all of it just faded in grey and disappeared. None of it could stayed on and bring much laughters to my face. Not even when i look at my baby tortoises. I just wish now I could fall in a deep sleep to a place where there is constant happiness.
Despite of all this unhappiness, I am glad that I have so many understanding friends around me. I am so glad that they are there for me when such a thing happened, glad that they were there to help and pull me one step at a time out of the darkness.
I dunno why, before all this happened I was already attracted to this song. Now it kinda like made more sense. This song seems to sing out what how I felt and what should I do and seriously helped me calm down alot.
蔡淳佳 & 陳冠宇 - 左右为难